Feel The Fear and Do It Anyway
What if everything you have ever wanted is just on the other side of your fear? What if all that you desire is desiring you too? What if the fear you feel is more than just a burden holding you back but a precious gift to help you break free?
For decades I have been crafting my dream life inside of my inner world. The house I have built has undergone a few renovations over time just as it would in the physical realm as I evolve and change. I have spent hours in my reading nook, crafting and creating in my artist loft, enjoying meals in the sunroom oasis just off my kitchen, walking with my dogs and cats along the winding trails of my property, and flinging myself onto the fluffiest white bedding in my master suite too many times to count. I have almost every detail accounted for except for one. When I open my eyes, my dream life doesn’t exist in my physical reality and if I’m honest, I’m a little offended it hasn’t come together yet.
For a long time I allowed this misalignment to depress me, to create doubt and hopelessness that it will never happen. Believing that what I want is only available to me in the depths of my imagination. I have watched other people living the life I desire and finding myself asking the universe over and over again why. Why hasn’t this happened for me yet? Why is this not working out for me? What am I doing wrong? Why can’t I get there? What’s wrong with me? Failing to see all the ways I have allowed fear to direct my choices and the belief in myself to turn my dreams into my reality. I am the reason my dreams are still waiting for me. It’s taken a long time to see that and even longer to admit out loud but it’s true. I have allowed my fear to keep me stuck in place and living a very small life.
I decided a long time ago that when the day comes and I find myself in the last moments before my death, I don’t want to look back on my life and regret not living it to the fullest. That I would rather regret trying and failing than to regret a missed opportunity. It is because of this decision that I have accomplished and done some of the most extraordinary things in my life, each experience coming down to that pivatol moment where I felt all the fear but did it anyway. Taking a massive leap into the unknown and trusting that it was going to work out. And looking back? Everything has always worked out and many times better than I ever could have imagined.
So here I stand at yet another point in my life where the fear of not accomplishing my dreams is more terrifying than my fear to try. It takes an insane amount of courage to get out of my own way but I know this is what needs to happen if I want to experience my inner world in my physical reality. I know that everything is possible for me in this lifetime. We are co-creator beings, here on earth to co-create with the Divine. We have so much power to alchemize the endless energy available to us and mold it into physical matter. We are the sculptures of our lives, given the freedom to create whatever we want and all of the tools and supplies we need to make it happen. We simply have to believe it’s possible because it is. So I stand here choosing to embrace my fear with unconditional love, allowing it to illuminate what I hold within me that is asking to be healed, and letting the limitations of my fears and beliefs to be released so that I can step confidently forward knowing that I am becoming a vibrational match for the person I know that I am, living the life that I know is waiting for me.
August 5, 2024 | Heather Harti, Soul Star Inspired Wellness