Meeting Yourself With Love
I read a quote this morning that resonated deeply with where I have found myself the last few months.
“Be gentle as you are meeting the parts of yourself you have been at war with“
The last 2 ½ months have called me to turn deeply inward, completely removing myself from my work, my relationships and my life. I didn’t think there could be an ever greater level of isolation possible but when your soul is ready for profound transformation, nothing is off the table.
Profound transformation. Like pandora’s box, the shadows so neatly suppressed in the dark caverns of my being demanded to be free, to be held, to be loved. To say the overwhelming intensity of their presence was challenging is the greatest understatement of the century. I couldn’t ignore them any longer. It was time and even though I didn’t feel like it at all, I was ready.
There is a certain level of bravery that comes with doing this work. Sitting with myself and my darkness has often times been harder than some of my most painful experiences.
How do you hold yourself in love when you are overwhelmed with shame?
How do you hold compassion for yourself when the weight of disappointment brings you to your knees?
How do you embrace all that you are when you are mourning the person you once were?
How do you know you are loved and supported when you feel so alone?
How do you have hope when you can’t see the light?
The shadow can not exist with out the light.
Piece by piece I choose to embrace my shadows. Leaning into the discomfort of what they bring. Allowing myself to feel the pain, confusion, anger, sadness and defeat. Working through them one at a time, peeling back the layers to discover what is asking to be healed. What limiting beliefs I hold that are not in alignment with Divine truth and working with them to shift my perspective. Offering forgiveness to not only myself but others for the pain and trauma I have endured. Allowing myself to see the painful truth of my experiences, no longer gaslighting myself into believing my perceptions aren’t real. Learning to trust my intuition again. Accepting when I have been wrong or behaved from a place of ego, pain or distortion. Remembering that I am still Divine even when I am not perfect. Discovering who I am today and allowing who I was to be honored and released. It is from this place of acceptance and embrace that I emerge with the strength to move forward with an open heart. It is from this space that I fully surrender to the Divine, filled with hope for what’s to come, gratitude for the abundance in my life and unconditional love for all that meets me along the way.
By shining my light and holding compassion for myself, I am able to meet myself with love.
January 11, 2024 | Heather Harti, Soul Star Inspired Wellness