Heather Harti

Being Present in Love

It’s not too often I can find someone who can hold the level of space needed for the depths of all that I am. It’s not that I am a walking trauma dumper or need constant validation, companionship, or to be seen 100% of the time. No, I am far too worried about repelling people that I carefully adjust to meet others where they are. Often becoming the space holder they didn’t know they needed until it was suddenly available. I have simply faced the darkness of my own shadows enough that the darkness in others no longer causes me to run away.

Why are we so conditioned to fear the discomfort? Why do we shy away from the pain we all eventually feel in this human experience?

I can’t speak for the whole of humanity but in the places I have lived, we the collective are fearless heroes. Stepping in to save the day when immediate crisis occurs. Doing whatever it takes to move things into the safety of calmer waters. But what happens after that? When the adrenaline dissipates and the community returns to their own every day lives. What happens when there is still so much to process in the wake of your experiences yet no quick fixes to make everything all better again? The heroes don’t stay once the crisis is gone and you begin to see who is really there to weather the storms as each day passes. 

People aren’t built for long term compassion. They care enough yet the extent to which they are available to walk with you is entirely dependent on their own ability to sit with pain. I purposefully didn’t tell anyone when I got sick because there is nothing worse than watching other people recoil in discomfort at your experience. Like bro, even if I wasn’t gifted I can totally see your face. The sad look of pity mixed with get me the fuck out of here. I’ve seen this face countless times, not only when I was wasting away trying to survive, but in the myriad of other painful experiences where I couldn’t be everyone’s Sunshine Heather. When I was an actual human struggling through heartache, loss, grief, rejection, neglect, manipulation, and so much pain. Pain that I didn’t have the luxury of running away from. That no matter how much I tried to numb my emotions and distract my thoughts, I couldn’t escape. Rock bottom after rock bottom that I had to face alone. The absolute full surrender I had to allow in order to create the space I needed to hold all the parts of me. Allowing the anger, the sadness, and the disappointment to be seen. To be felt. To be heard. To see the parts of myself that disgust me. My shame. My failures. All the ways in which I have let down not only the people in my life but taking ownership for all the ways I’ve failed myself. Holding my weaknesses without brutally attacking them. Letting myself feel validated for what I’d been through, holding the victim in love instead of brushing over all that deeply impacted and changed me. Letting go the judgement and expectations, the unrealistic standards and the control. To allow all those shadows and all that darkness, ever so present, to be fully held and seen without shying away even when the discomfort overwhelmed me. I let myself fully embrace the shadows clouding my life and one by one they softened. One by one I found a way to open my heart to these parts of me as the shadows integrated with the light. It isn’t about the absence of but the integration into oneness. 

We are all that we are, the shadows and the light, and there is no need to fear that which we are in oneness. Yet as much as this is the divine truth, we are still here on earth having our human experience. The journey of our souls expansion. And on this journey I continue to unlock parts of myself on even deeper levels asking to be held in the light. And as a human, I am still vulnerable to the needs and desires of being held when those painful parts arise.

I had the opportunity to speak on this at a recent meeting when asked what stops us from embodying the gifts of our higher self. I shared that in spiritual spaces I feel safe to allow the sacred parts of myself to flow freely but find myself being shut down and rejected by humanity. How am I to be of service when the full embodiment of all that I am repels people and causes me to become small? How am I supposed to be the empowered, fully authentic me when the world around me keeps shutting me down? Even in spaced that are specifically designed to support my vulnerability somehow reject me or make me feel like a burden. What is is about me that causes others to close their hearts when mine is breaking to be seen? 

I know how I show up in spaces, leading the way to allow others to feel safe to soften and be seen. Maybe I make it look easy but let me be clear, even now, exposing these parts of myself here in these words is terrifying. I am painfully private. Do you honestly think I feel super safe sharing this with you? It takes an insane amount of courage to put your heart and soul on the line. To talk openly about that which causes you the greatest pain. To reveal the deeper limiting beliefs weaving their way through each moment of your life. To shine light on your failures. Your hopes. Your dreams. Your heart. It’s hard enough facing these pieces in private let alone to the world at large. Knowing there will be judgement. Knowing that instead of a heart that held me, I’ll get a double thumbs up as if nothing I said even mattered or was even heard. 

It matters to me.

That’s why I show up. That’s why I share. That’s why I hold space for others. Because I need that space held too. Because I know the depth of pain a human can feel and how alone and isolating it can be when no one can bear to witness the discomfort and pain. It’s not about saving the day. It’s about being present so they don’t have to go through it alone. It’s understanding there’s not always something to say and nothing that can be done. It’s about being present in love.

June 17, 2026 | Heather Harti, Soul Star Inspired Wellness

The Greater Potential

“Look at me. I’m wasted talent doing nothing with my genius.”

Part of a comment I posted on a TikTok regarding smart people and their decisions in career path. Like, look at me. I wouldn’t have a lot to show for what I’m actually capable of. But what an even greater opportunity to observe a belief I hold about myself. The judgement. The expectation. 

Is it the divine truth that I am talented and full of genius potential? YES!

Is it the divine truth that I am wasting my talent and doing nothing with my genius? No.

Is there greater potential for the use of my talent and genius that I have yet to tap into? Yes.

Begin here.

Let go of the past. Let go of where I am right now in this moment. What has been and what is, is no longer relevant. It is in what I choose next. It is in the creative potential of each choice and the use of my talent and my genius to co-create with that potential that makes the difference.

Am I still divine in the moments that pass in stillness and silence? Am I wasted talent doing nothing with my genius? Can I let go and simply be and allow myself to be guided?

Can I acknowledge the parts of my being that cry in weakness, wanting to stay held in darkness to rot away? Safe in their misery as time marches on?

Can I accept that these are a part of me? Created to hold the consciousness of my past experiences to protect me and keep me feeling so small and sad? Can I accept their presence within me with love? To hold them without embodying their essence? To see them, their pain, their fear, and what they have endured to become the powerful aspects they are? Powerful enough to influence my way of being here in the now of this life time. 

Even now I feel them, these parts that don’t feel worthy of being heard. That don’t like feeling exposed to the world for the same judgement they hold for themselves. Fear that those judgements will be validated, that they are in fact worthless and small. That there is no place for their ideas, their talent, their genius or their light. How can I embrace these parts within me that tell me the same thing. That I am not worth shining my light. That there is no place for me and my ideas. That no one wants to hear what I have to say. What I have to share. How can I hold these pieces when there is a part of me that believes it too?

The curser blinks on repeat as I sit here holding space for this question because I don’t have the answer. How do we begin to hold loving space for the parts of ourselves that make us want to hide? That feel so dark and gross that you instantly chase anything else to distract you from acknowledging them all the while never fully escaping the vibration they hold. How do you find the courage to face the shadow? To allow the light to fully illuminate and expose what we are too afraid to see?

What if it’s not as scary as we expect it to be? What if what we see is more than just the pain and fear the shadows held but the greatness of all that we are? That we have no reason to fear our shadows. That we are more than what we believe is true. That we hold the power to overcome fear with love. That we are the gift of light upon the earth. That we are meant to shine. To speak. To create. To love. That your voice matters, no matter how soft you speak. That your essence is a gift by simply being. That what has held you back in the past does not matter as you choose, in each moment, to shine your light.

Perhaps it is in the letting go, allowing these parts to be present without attachment. Without embodying their essence when they feel fear but letting the energy flow. Allowing this moment to remind you of the parts of your being worth loving, worth compassion, grace and a safe space to be seen. Letting this energy come back into oneness with all that you are, the shadow and the light.

For Dearest Heart, you are the light. You are the essence of all that is. You are all that you are.

Remember that the next time you feel yourself holding back and feeling small. The world needs you and your beautiful light. Shine bright 

May 25, 2026 | Heather Harti, Soul Star Inspired Wellness

Finding the Way Back To Your Heart

It isn’t always the shadows that scare me, You live long enough and you are bound to have collected your share of traumas, fears and failures. Even the best laid plans are always made with a contingency clause A, B, C and even a softy formed D, just in case.

You expect the hard times. You’ve lived them enough to understand the strength it takes to bear the weight of their pain. Often times choosing your own pain in exchange for the pain of another, knowing the capacity for which you can hold while maintaining the hope it takes to make it through.

It’s so easy to let go. To let the mind sweep you deeper into hopelessness and despair. To allow fear to cast shadows of doubt so dark you forget who you are. But the shadow cannot exist without the light and it is in the darkest moments we discover the truth.

This last year I fell deeply into my human experience. Something I had found controlled balance in since getting sick. I had the complete freedom to be so focused on my spiritual expansion that I wasn’t prepared for the experience of having that glass bubble shatter to pieces. My path was tested. What I had learned, the way I moved, the vibration I held, my faith, my practice, my discipline. All of it.

And I failed.

I let my experiences overcome me, losing myself in the chaos and change. Letting fear and desire be the guiding light. Feeling as there was no place in my experience for my light to lead the way. I flatlined and made myself small, experiencing parts of myself I hadn’t seen in decades. Making choices I knew were not in alignment with my highest potential yet feeling too lost and spiraling to stop myself from continuing to fall.

The darkness. The despair. The fear of the unknown. Suffocating me as I pushed myself to find balance. To allow myself to experience joy. To have fun and be free. To rediscover what brings happiness to my life.

I remember saying time and again that I don’t feel like myself and it took several months to realize that I am no longer who I was nor am I yet who I am becoming. Of course I don’t feel like myself. The person before the trauma did not survive and the person who no longer knew what was real has also gone. What’s left are the fragmented pieces of every person I’ve ever been. Taking the most beautiful parts and bringing them back together into something new. Something whole and unique with a story to be told.

And what is that story? What has this experience taught me?

What happens when you lose sight of your light?

I remember thinking to myself that you don’t get through the hell I’ve been through just to end up right back in the same hopeless cage. I’ve survived some of my greatest fears come true and in the work that I do, I know this is not by coincidence but divine design.

What I have discovered about myself has unveiled shadow aspects that have deeply affected my life in ways I had not truly understood and even now can only grasp to the depth to which I can hold.

I have grown to love and accept myself in ways that have haunted me in the past. I have accepted my limitations and honored when the time has come to accept what is and let go. I have witnessed my capacity to love, my integrity and the way I show up in this world. I have come face to face with the parts of myself I have rejected and been shown the ways in which I seek from others that which I refuse to bring to myself.

The greatest gift has been the illumination of my darkest shadow. The one with the most pain and the worst fear. The one distorting me from seeing the truth. That I am divine. I am worthy. I am a light in this world. Not less than. Not the hopeless failure my mind tries to make me believe. I am all that I am. Not just the broken pieces but the light that illuminates that all is divine. That my pain and my experiences have not been for nothing but the catalyst my soul needed in order to fully step into my purpose here on earth.

This was the initiation.

To remind me the weight that humanity holds. To remember that the shadow can not exist without the light. To find my way back home to all that I am. To find my way back to my heart.

May 11, 2026 | Heather Harti, Soul Star Inspired Wellness

Surrendering To The Divine – Finding Your Light in the Darkness

You know those moments when a seemingly ordinary experience suddenly illuminates a key piece of wisdom and understanding? This ah ha moment literally just happened to me. I belong to a philanthropic educational organization and we pay our annual dues in February. I started receiving email notices in early January and as the days and weeks went by, the phones call reminders started coming in followed by text messages asking for the money, each notice requesting that the dues be received before March 1^st. It wasn’t just one member reaching out, I was contacted by at least 3 different people. Did I drop a check in the mail the minute I got the first email? No, my life has been a level of challenging I’ve never faced before but I had every intention of making the payment in time. With each email, call and text, the urgency accelerated. Was I getting the messages? Did I forget? Did I need some assistance getting it done? Was the money on the way? Did I send it to the right address? When did I send it? Am I sure? As I confirmed it was mailed, the address I sent it to, and the fact that I live 3,000 miles away, and we’ve had road closures due to landslides…today, well before the deadline, my check arrived.

This got me thinking about our desires and the energy we feel when we don’t see them manifest quickly. How many times have you found yourself asking again, feeling disappointed, getting anxious, maybe even allowing the anger and doubt to overwhelm you. How many times have you asked the divine why? Begged to be supported just to be left waiting, not even knowing if what you have asked for is on the way. And how many times has what you’ve wanted shown up right on time? How many times was it better than you even thought it would be? How many times have you allowed your reactions, distortions and limiting beliefs to overshadow your faith in the divine plan, your co-creative power, and your willingness to surrender and receive?

Just like the ladies looking for their dues, I am currently in a place of desperately awaiting mine. As the deadline looms, the doubt and worry creeps in causing me to lose sight of my faith. I am learning how to manifest from a place of excitement and not fear, from love and not anger, from peace and not anxiety. I am at what could be considered one of the most challenging moments of my life yet this opportunity allows me to put into action a new way of being that I have worked so hard to embody. How can I hold myself with love and compassion? How can I honor what is being triggered within me? How can I transform my limiting beliefs into the divine truth? In what ways can I surrender more deeply, knowing that I am supported and loved unconditionally? 

I am grateful for the awareness of where I am now. The version of me that existed for the majority of my life would not have been able to hold space for this experience. The energy I hold now is a direct reflection of the work I have done to heal my trauma, resolve my karma, shift my perspective and learn to love myself on a level I never knew was possible. I love and honor all that I am, even when everything has been stripped from me. I give thanks for the abundance in my life, even when I have no idea how I am going to make it. I give thanks for the love and support in my life, even when I feel utterly alone. I give thanks for all that I am in each moment, because I know that I am divine light and that the challenges I face are for my highest potential. That through what I face, I find strength in my ability to overcome. That my struggles empower me to shine and help others to do the same. 

Are my manifestations coming? I trust that they are. Until then, I will grow through the discomfort knowing that I have called this into my experience in order to meet the shadow parts of myself ready to be seen. To find my light in the darkness. To let go and allow. To open and receive. 

February 15, 2025 | Heather Harti, Soul Star Inspired Wellness

Divine Timing

As a recovering control freak I love order, structure, well crafted plans, knowing what to expect and how things will unfold. For years I have been needing to return to Wisconsin to deal with the house I walked away from when I moved back to California and this task has weighed so heavily on my mind creating stress and anxiety, not knowing how I was going to make this happen, when to do it and who was going to help me. I was massively overwhelmed, but the thing is it never fell into place until it was supposed to and I had to finally let go of allowing it to burden my mind and surrendered to divine timing. Little did I know how everything would come together exactly how it was supposed to.

Earlier this year I met my friend Damien. I always wonder why people are brought into my life because I’m not an easy person to gain access to. I tend to fiercely protect my energy, my space and my peace so of course I knew there was a divine reason at play. Over the last 7 months we’ve gotten to be really good friends, helping each other through the things life throws our way. One day, I casually mentioned needing help going back to Wisconsin and just like that the divine plan began to unfold. He had an opportunity in his schedule to go, the unseasonable weather was in our favor, and we made the plan to hit the road and do the thing.

Now here is where divine timing really begins. As we prepared to leave, our departure date kept getting pushed back. My inner control freak was spazing out but I knew deep within me that there had to be a reason. On the second day of our trip, we decided to take a little 20 min detour to Kings Beach at Lake Tahoe and while we were there made a last minute decision to stop by a skate shop and this is where we met Lisa at Lady Luck. As the conversations began to unfold, Lisa and I found common ground in energy work, spirituality, and so many other small yet significant similarities in who we are and what we have experieinced. To say this meeting felt meant to be is an understatement. Lisa shared her story, her passions and her dreams, allowing us a glimpse of her beautiful heart and the callings of her soul. In turn, I was able to share with her the knowing deep within my own being that she will absolutely see her dreams manifest into fruition beyond what she could ever imagine. What she is creating is going to have a ripple effect that will have a positive impact on the lives of so many people for years to come.

You guys, this meeting was destined to happen. I can’t even make this shit up. Lisa only works one day a week. If we had left even one day earlier or later, we wouldn’t have met her. If I had gone to Wisconsin at any other moment in time before this, I wouldn’t have been traveling with Damien who was the whole reason we stopped in Lake Tahoe and went into the shop for a skateboard. When I say that the divine always has a greater plan in store, I mean it. This is why I accept when things don’t go perfectly as planned. This is why I trust when deours happen. This is why I choose to surrender in each moment. This is why I trust the divine plan. Everything and I mean EVERYTHING always happens exactly how and when it is meant to and that my friend is the beauty and magic of divine timing.

November 7, 2024 | Heather Harti, Soul Star Inspired Wellness

Divine Connection

Leading up to my spiritual awakening, I had been finding myself isolating more and avoiding the relationships I held so close to my heart. I thought maybe I was just being weird and awkward but something in me just couldn’t connect in the way that had always been so natural to me. I was withdrawing into myself more and more every day and getting sick was the knife that completely severed what little connection I had left, leaving me unable to work, socialize, or even function. Not only was I pulling away but I became hyper aware of the disconnect most people feel when someone is experiencing long term suffering. I can’t tell you how many times I would speak candidly about what I was going through just to see the sad look of feeling sorry for me mixed with get me the fuck out of here on someones face. I get it. Our society is more designed for immediate response heroism and less for long term compassion. We want to help fix the problem right away and aren’t really taught how to hold space when the problem persists without a solution to make it better.

When the pandemic hit, I was further isolated when I moved back to California and into a little cabin tucked away in the mountains. I was 45 minutes from town and the closest neighbor was a 5 minute drive away, not that it mattered with the first wave of shelter in place in full force. Over the next 4 years, I watched as friendships fell apart, my relationship crumble, and my already small world get even smaller. The deeper I went into my spiritual journey, the more I was being called inward. I was being asked to meet the darkest parts of my being. To come face to face with everything I fought so desperately to escape. My world was falling apart so that I could come home to the Divine truth of my being. To discover my divinity and connect with the Divine so intimately that my entire existence became one with the path I now walk. The way in which I was called to live and be of service to the light and to humanity. To become one with all that I am and all that is.

As the time has come to emerge from my cocoon of transformation, it is strange relearning how to navigate my external environment. I had become so accustomed to endless amounts of time and space to be in connection with myself and the Divine that I’m finding it hard to find balance as I create new friendships and interact with the world again. On one hand, it is so fulfilling to share space with others, to laugh, to create, to get out and do things again. I didn’t realize how much I had missed being apart of a humanity. Yet as I find myself desiring this time and connection more and more, I am struggling to feel my connection with the divine. I went from having nothing to do to having so much going on. I went from being hyper focused on my healing to being focused on the enjoyment of my experiences. I know that I am a spiritual being having a human experience but I’ve forgotten how to be both at the same time. This feeling of disconnection has become glaring over the last few weeks as I stumble around trying to find my way forward. How can I find balance between the physical and spiritual world? How can I bring my divinity forward into my humanity? How can I allow the divine light to shine through me in all that I do? How do I blend my internal and external worlds into one beautiful and cohesive experience?

As I gently navigate my way forward, I hold love and compassion for each step I take. This discomfort is but one more opportunity to allow the light to illuminate the parts of myself that are asking to be embraced. An opportunity to learn and to grow into the wholeness of who I am now, who I have always been destined to be. I have to remind myself that it takes time to integrate and become. That every new beginning starts with taking the first step forward. That the feelings of separation and disconnection are simply an illusion. That I am always supported and held in love by the Divine. That I am never a part from the divine with in me. That in time, the full expression of all that I am will become a natural part of my authentic being out in the world just as it has within me. That my connection with the divine will only become stronger as I surrender and allow the unfolding of the journey ahead. There is no end to the path we walk for our soul is here for expansion. Expansion that occurs in each moment through our challenges, our enjoyments, and our experiences here on earth. It is in the continual remembrance of all that we are that we allow the the light to guide us each step of the way. We are never apart from the divine light of source. We ARE the expression of the Divine light in each moment, in all that we do and all that we are.

October 3, 2024 | Heather Harti, Soul Star Inspired Wellness

The Path to Acceptance

Have you ever notice that the pieces your soul is ready to work on are the ones that end up right in your face to the point there is no way you can ignore or avoid them? This is exactly how acceptance became the focal point of my personal journey the last two months. I’ve been working on loving myself more the last few years but aparently I needed to go deeper still as this now became my homework for a class I’m taking. Not only the acceptance of what is but the acceptance of others and most importantly, the acceptance of myself. I would say love to say it was easy but what this work has revealed to me is my incredible struggle to truly accept myself.

I prefer to focus on others. To be of service, helping people to see how beautiful they are, how worthy and deserving and capable and amazing they are. To see the way their light shines and brightens the world around them. To help them realize their dreams and then overcome their fears to chase them with courage, knowing that everything is possible for them. To remember who they are. Yet, I struggle to see these same pieces within myself. To see the myself the way others see me. To truly accept myself.

For so much of my life, I have experienced rejection and abandonment from the world around me. I know this is a massive piece of karma I am meant to overcome in this lifetime because let me tell you I will be pissed if I have to come back and go through this shit again. How do you accept yourself when you are rejected by others? The insane amount of pain I have experienced through feeling unworthy, unlovable, unwanted, and a total burden has left me believing something is wrong with me, that if I could just figure out what it is, I could fix it and maybe be accepted and love for who I am. No matter how much I tried to love myself, I continued to be misunderstood, discarded, and left behind.

So when I was asked to connect with my angelic higher self 5 days a week for 4 weeks, it came as no surprise that the answers always came back to me and the acceptance of myself. How may I accept others more? Accept myself. How may I serve the Divine light on earth? Accept myself. How may I connect more deeply with my Divine Presence? Accept myself. And how exactly am I supposed to do that? How do I accept myself? The wisdom she shared was simple yet profound.

“There is no need for judgement. You are made from love. Made in the image of source. An extension of source here on earth. An expression of source unfolding in each moment. No beginning. No end. Simply creation unfolding before you. We ask that you do not judge yourself as you would not judge the flowers as they bloom. A crow who’s beak may be shortened. Nor a small child imperfect in the eye of man yet perfect in the eye of creation. Each creation upon the earth is unique and all creation holds purpose. Divine purpose in accordance to the flow of the divine plan. So we ask you Dearest one not to judge your own imperfections. To see the beauty in all aspects of your being. In the way that you feel your emotions. In the way that your beautiful mind connects deeply with your experience. In the ways that you stumble and the ways that you rise. Let go the expectations you hold for yourself for we hold not expectation. Each step that you take forward upon your journey is the creation of God source in you. The unfolding of the beautiful plan that you are. In the light of your essence you are perfection. The simple vibration of all that is. No judgements. We ask you dearest one to open your heart to all that you are for you are one with all that is. As you feel your mind begin to judge the parts of yourself, open your heart to love and you will know the full perfection of the truth. Accept the path that you walk that is always unfolding just as it is meant to and in this now will be able to accept all parts of your being. Let go. Let go of the expectation of humanity and open your heart to love. Namaste”

Message after message always coming back to trust, to letting go, to seeing the beauty of all that I am, to seeking the divine light within me, to opening my heart to the essence of love, and most of to no longer hold myself in judgement. As this journey unfolded, each message returning to the open heart of love. The I am loved and I am made from love. No matter what I do, no matter what anyone else thinks of me, no matter how many times I stumble and fall. I am always held and supported in unconditional love.

Unconditional love is not a feeling but a state of being. A state of acceptance for what is without attachment, without judgement, without expectation. To be in a state of acceptance is to first acknowledge what is, accept what is, and embrace what is. I know I am not alone on the journey of acceptance, I see it reflected in the hearts of humanity all around me. So it is with courage that I continue to meet and accept all parts of my being with an open heart. Not only my shadows but also my light. Because I know now that when I truly accept and love myself without judgement and without expectation, I can fearlessly be all that I am and allow others to do the same. That is the pure essence of being unconditional love upon the earth and how I can shine in service to the light.

September 5, 2024 | Heather Harti, Soul Star Inspired Wellness