
Surrendering To The Divine – Finding Your Light in the Darkness
You know those moments when a seemingly ordinary experience suddenly illuminates a key piece of wisdom and understanding? This ah ha moment literally just happened to me. I belong to a philanthropic educational organization and we pay our annual dues in February. I started receiving email notices in early January and as the days and weeks went by, the phones call reminders started coming in followed by text messages asking for the money, each notice requesting that the dues be received before March 1st. It wasn’t just one member reaching out, I was contacted by at least 3 different people. Did I drop a check in the mail the minute I got the first email? No, my life has been a level of challenging I’ve never faced before but I had every intention of making the payment in time. With each email, call and text, the urgency accelerated. Was I getting the messages? Did I forget? Did I need some assistance getting it done? Was the money on the way? Did I send it to the right address? When did I send it? Am I sure? As I confirmed it was mailed, the address I sent it to, and the fact that I live 3,000 miles away, and we’ve had road closures due to landslides…today, well before the deadline, my check arrived.
This got me thinking about our desires and the energy we feel when we don’t see them manifest quickly. How many times have you found yourself asking again, feeling disappointed, getting anxious, maybe even allowing the anger and doubt to overwhelm you. How many times have you asked the divine why? Begged to be supported just to be left waiting, not even knowing if what you have asked for is on the way. And how many times has what you’ve wanted shown up right on time? How many times was it better than you even thought it would be? How many times have you allowed your reactions, distortions and limiting beliefs to overshadow your faith in the divine plan, your co-creative power, and your willingness to surrender and receive?
Just like the ladies looking for their dues, I am currently in a place of desperately awaiting mine. As the deadline looms, the doubt and worry creeps in causing me to lose sight of my faith. I am learning how to manifest from a place of excitement and not fear, from love and not anger, from peace and not anxiety. I am at what could be considered one of the most challenging moments of my life yet this opportunity allows me to put into action a new way of being that I have worked so hard to embody. How can I hold myself with love and compassion? How can I honor what is being triggered within me? How can I transform my limiting beliefs into the divine truth? In what ways can I surrender more deeply, knowing that I am supported and loved unconditionally?
I am grateful for the awareness of where I am now. The version of me that existed for the majority of my life would not have been able to hold space for this experience. The energy I hold now is a direct reflection of the work I have done to heal my trauma, resolve my karma, shift my perspective and learn to love myself on a level I never knew was possible. I love and honor all that I am, even when everything has been stripped from me. I give thanks for the abundance in my life, even when I have no idea how I am going to make it. I give thanks for the love and support in my life, even when I feel utterly alone. I give thanks for all that I am in each moment, because I know that I am divine light and that the challenges I face are for my highest potential. That through what I face, I find strength in my ability to overcome. That my struggles empower me to shine and help others to do the same.
Are my manifestations coming? I trust that they are. Until then, I will grow through the discomfort knowing that I have called this into my experience in order to meet the shadow parts of myself ready to be seen. To find my light in the darkness. To let go and allow. To open and receive.
February 15, 2025 | Heather Harti, Soul Star Inspired Wellness
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