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Feel The Fear and Do It Anyway

What if everything you have ever wanted is just on the other side of your fear?  What if all that you desire is desiring you too?  What if the fear you feel is more than just a burden holding you back but a precious gift to help you break free?

For decades I have been crafting my dream life inside of my inner world.  The house I have built has undergone a few renovations over time just as it would in the physical realm as I evolve and change.  I have spent hours in my reading nook, crafting and creating in my artist loft, enjoying meals in the sunroom oasis just off my kitchen, walking with my dogs and cats along the winding trails of my property, and flinging myself onto the fluffiest white bedding in my master suite too many times to count.  I have almost every detail accounted for except for one.  When I open my eyes, my dream life doesn’t exist in my physical reality and if I’m honest, I’m a little offended it hasn’t come together yet.  

For a long time I allowed this misalignment to depress me, to create doubt and hopelessness that it will never happen.  Believing that what I want is only available to me in the depths of my imagination.  I have watched other people living the life I desire and finding myself asking the universe over and over again why.  Why hasn’t this happened for me yet?  Why is this not working out for me? What am I doing wrong?  Why can’t I get there?  What’s wrong with me?  Failing to see all the ways I have allowed fear to direct my choices and the belief in myself to turn my dreams into my reality.  I am the reason my dreams are still waiting for me.  It’s taken a long time to see that and even longer to admit out loud but it’s true.  I have allowed my fear to keep me stuck in place and living a very small life.

I decided a long time ago that when the day comes and I find myself in the last moments before my death, I don’t want to look back on my life and regret not living it to the fullest.  That I would rather regret trying and failing than to regret a missed opportunity.  It is because of this decision that I have accomplished and done some of the most extraordinary things in my life, each experience coming down to that pivatol moment where I felt all the fear but did it anyway.  Taking a massive leap into the unknown and trusting that it was going to work out.  And looking back?  Everything has always worked out and many times better than I ever could have imagined.  

So here I stand at yet another point in my life where the fear of not accomplishing my dreams is more terrifying than my fear to try.  It takes an insane amount of courage to get out of my own way but I know this is what needs to happen if I want to experience my inner world in my physical reality.  I know that everything is possible for me in this lifetime.  We are co-creator beings, here on earth to co-create with the Divine.  We have so much power to alchemize the endless energy available to us and mold it into physical matter.  We are the sculptures of our lives, given the freedom to create whatever we want and all of the tools and supplies we need to make it happen.  We simply have to believe it’s possible because it is.  So I stand here choosing to embrace my fear with unconditional love, allowing it to illuminate what I hold within me that is asking to be healed, and letting the limitations of my fears and beliefs to be released so that I can step confidently forward knowing that I am becoming a vibrational match for the person I know that I am, living the life that I know is waiting for me.

August 5, 2024 | Heather Harti, Soul Star Inspired Wellness

Awakening to You

Have you ever felt trapped inside of your life? Feeling hopeless, not knowing where to go or what to do yet desperately wanting it to get better? This has been a place I’ve found myself in many times throughout my life. I think Peggy Lee’s morbidly campy song “Is That All There Is?” sang true to both the sentiments of my desperations and my desires.

I have lived an extraordinary life. I have experienced things many never will, making unorthodoxed choices that went against the grain of the expectations of my upbringing. So many times the shame of disappointing my amazing, supportive and loving parents clouded the unweilding need to be a gypsy. To be free. Not all of my choices have led to incredible outcomes. In fact many of them created trauma, deep suffering and repercusions that will affect me for the rest of my life. 

When I made the choice to walk a path of enlightment, I had found myself caught in a web of disappointment, desperation, hopelessness and fear. No matter what I did or how hard I tried, nothing ever worked out for me. I was miserable and on a treadmill going nowhere. I remember thinking to myself, is this it? It this my life? Is that all there is? Yet, in all of the swarming darkness there has always been the softest whisper of hope. A knowing of something greater. That there was something big I was supposed to do. Some purpose for my soul being here on earth. I didn’t know what. I didn’t know how. But that soft little whisper kept me alive. It kept me going even when I couldn’t imagine hanging on even one more day. I remember crying as I looked to the sky, telling God that I was done trying. That I was willing to surrender. What ever grand purpose or plan I was here for, I was handing over the reigns. Many years later, I am still intentionally choosing to let go and surrender every single day.

This journey has not been easy. I had no idea how dark and painful this path would be. Every part of my being had to be deconstructed in order to become who I truly am. I wanted so desperately to escape the darkness yet I was being asked to willingly trust fall right into it. Like the aftermath of the most epic battle since the War with Hybern in A Court of Wings and Ruin, every single aspect of my life has crumbled to pieces since that day. I had to face my fears head on, to sit with the discomfort of my own darkness. I questioned everything I thought I knew about myself. I had to accept parts of myself that brought me so much shame and disappointment. But with each piece I was brave enough to hold, I began to discover my light. My authentic self waiting to shine. That whisper of hope who had waited decades to be free. 

Through my willingness to lean into the discomfort, I learned to embrace my shadows, to love the parts of myself I had been at war with. I discovered that my imperfections made me beautiful and unique. I found my worth. I learned how to love myself and I as I began to accept all parts of who I am, something magical happened. My inner light grew brighter. I began to embrace my gifts and to stand empowered in the authenticity of all that I am. This transformation has rippled out into every aspect of my life. I have found a sense of inner peace and purpose I had never known before. As I sit here today, I have a greater acceptance of the divine plan knowing this is the journey of my soul unfolding in each moment. Do I still struggle? Of course I do! But I am able to understand the deeper meanings of my challenges and know that each step I take is a step forward. That through acceptance and love, I am healing, growing and becoming exactly who I am meant to be and I would do it all again to be exactly where I am today. Shining my light and bringing love, hope and healing to the world around me. 

July 3, 2024 | Heather Harti, Soul Star Inspired Wellness

Use This Opportunity to Create Your Life

I have an incredibly expanded point of view when it comes to life.  I see the bigger picture, I see the whole as one, I understand the cosmic spider web as my dear friend Lauren so magically refers to the way in which all is connected.  Yet nothing hones my focus faster than abrupt disruption and chaos to my sense of safety and security.  Not just the threat of physical harm but also the more subtle core shaking experiences like the sudden loss of a loved one, unexpectedly being evicted with no where to go, the crumbling of a long term friendship or relationship that meets the final point of no return, facing major financial instability, having your safest spaces violated and dismantled, enduring harassment, intimidation and fear tactics directed at you…and all the fear, sadness, desperation, hopelessness and anger that arises from the shadows to greet you with the pain and discomfort they hold.  

How do you choose to face this opportunity?  Do you allow this experience to validate your limiting beliefs as you drown in the overwhelm or do you choose to allow this experience to create space for you to let go of what is no longer serving you so that you can heal and grow and expand into even more of your authentic self.  

The Law of Polarity teaches us that in the physical dimension all energy has a polarized or opposite vibration often referred to as duality yet all energy in this universe is created from the one source.  The Law of Polarity teaches you that an opposing force or different vibration of energy is just another end of the same energy wave.  For example sad vs happy, angry vs peaceful, rich vs poor, love vs hate and so on.  These energies represent both sides of the same coin in your awareness of duality yet they are made from the same source energy.  It is simply how you perceive this energy in each moment that creates your reality because you are a co-creator being, you have free will in the physical reality and have the ability to choose what vibration of energy you use to create your manifestations through your intention and focus.  The Law of Polarity reminds you that whatever you focus on will be what you create in your reality. Free will allows you to choose what you wish to bring into your reality so it’s important to choose wisely.

So when the chaos and disruptions shake your foundations, remember that this experience is an opportunity to create something new.  When fear overwhelms you, remember that excitement and fear come from the same energy and you get to choose which vibration you allow yourself to embody.  Embrace the fear that arises with compassion and love then allow it to flow and transform into the excitement of endless possibilities. 

What is this experience teaching you about yourself?

What if this is happening for you? 

What if all you desire is but one trust fall away? 

What if life is getting dismantled because this version of your experience is no longer serving you and this is clearing the way for something new to begin? 

Believe in all that you are.  Believe you are divinely protected, supported and loved.  You already have everything you need to withstand the storms within and around you.  Surrender and allow yourself to be transformed.  Choose to be excited about what is coming even when all you see is darkness.  Remember, the shadow can not exist without the light.  You are here for a divine purpose.  Trust the divine plan of your being.  Be the light of all that you are and allow your new life to begin 💖

March 23, 2024 | Heather Harti, Soul Star Inspired Wellness

The Way of Love

Reflecting back, I see now what an expansive year I had working with love.  I don’t think I really understood the way this lesson flowed through so many of my experiences, even when I was consciously aware it was the focal point of what I was currently working through.  Selfless love and sacrifice for another, the pain of losing the greatest love I’ve ever experienced, unrequited love, recognizing the patterns of distorted love in my life, learning how to hold myself in love on an even deeper level, allowing my heart to open and receive unconditional love from others, and falling even more deeply in love with all that I am.

Unconditional love asks us to accept all for what it is without judgement or expectation however the human experiences attaches a diverse range of emotions to the concept of love causing us to fear love, desperately long for love, or to feel unworthy of love in any form.  How can we move through our experiences in a way that uncovers the truth?  How can we open our hearts to allow love in when it causes discomfort and pain?  It is in having the courage to face these shadow aspects of unresolved energy, leaning into the heartache and limiting beliefs, and allowing compassion and grace to lead the way.

Like the spiral of life, I too continue to work through this journey of love.  We are made from the essence of love and when we remember the heartbeat of all that we are, we begin to see the gifts that love provides.  As I work to face the parts of myself still in the shadows I pause to ask, how can I love myself in this moment?  How can I support the way of love?  It is in the choices we make in each moment that create the opportunity to love, to be loving, to love ourselves and to share our love with others.  It is in honoring love that we open our hearts to receive and to remember who we are.  To be the light that shines brightly. To be the hope and the love we so desperately seek.  Coming home to our hearts and the essence of love that we are. It begins within.

February 7, 2024 | Heather Harti, Soul Star Inspired Wellness

Meeting Yourself With Love

I read a quote this morning that resonated deeply with where I have found myself the last few months.

“Be gentle as you are meeting the parts of yourself you have been at war with“

The last 2 ½ months have called me to turn deeply inward, completely removing myself from my work, my relationships and my life.  I didn’t think there could be an ever greater level of isolation possible but when your soul is ready for profound transformation, nothing is off the table.  

Profound transformation.  Like pandora’s box, the shadows so neatly suppressed in the dark caverns of my being demanded to be free, to be held, to be loved.  To say the overwhelming intensity of their presence was challenging is the greatest understatement of the century.  I couldn’t ignore them any longer.  It was time and even though I didn’t feel like it at all, I was ready.

There is a certain level of bravery that comes with doing this work.  Sitting with myself and my darkness has often times been harder than some of my most painful experiences. 

How do you hold yourself in love when you are overwhelmed with shame? 

How do you hold compassion for yourself when the weight of disappointment brings you to your knees? 

How do you embrace all that you are when you are mourning the person you once were? 

How do you know you are loved and supported when you feel so alone? 

How do you have hope when you can’t see the light?

The shadow can not exist with out the light.

Piece by piece I choose to embrace my shadows.  Leaning into the discomfort of what they bring.  Allowing myself to feel the pain, confusion, anger, sadness and defeat.  Working through them one at a time, peeling back the layers to discover what is asking to be healed.  What limiting beliefs I hold that are not in alignment with Divine truth and working with them to shift my perspective.  Offering forgiveness to not only myself but others for the pain and trauma I have endured.  Allowing myself to see the painful truth of my experiences, no longer gaslighting myself into believing my perceptions aren’t real.  Learning to trust my intuition again.  Accepting when I have been wrong or behaved from a place of ego, pain or distortion.  Remembering that I am still Divine even when I am not perfect.  Discovering who I am today and allowing who I was to be honored and released.  It is from this place of acceptance and embrace that I emerge with the strength to move forward with an open heart.  It is from this space that I fully surrender to the Divine, filled with hope for what’s to come, gratitude for the abundance in my life and unconditional love for all that meets me along the way.

By shining my light and holding compassion for myself, I am able to meet myself with love.

January 11, 2024 | Heather Harti, Soul Star Inspired Wellness

Honoring All That You Are

Looking back at this past year, I am humbled by the tremendous weight of my experiences both painful and expansive.  Around every corner I faced yet another soul expanding opportunity for growth, acceptance, discovery and surrender.  As we move through our journey here on earth it is so easy to get caught up in the motion of life, forgetting the greater scope and deeper meaning to all we encounter.  When we shift our focus inward we begin to discover who we truly are.  What brings us joy and what triggers our pain.  As we identify and begin to break down the cycles and facade of what once was we often find ourselves in this voidal space.  Stillness in the silence, ever present in the moment not knowing what’s to come but knowing in your heart that all is in order with the Divine plan.   

As this chapter comes to a close, I am in gratitude for the opportunity to look back at my experiences and honor the journey I have taken.  Honor the me I discovered along the way and choosing to embrace the shadows and the light.  I acknowledged and accepted a lot of really uncomfortable parts of myself but I also fell in love even more deeply with who I am.  I am learning how to open my heart to receive the blessings and abundance the universe always brings into my life, choosing to let go of my fears and judgements and surrender fully.  It’s not easy, I am a recovering perfectionist who likes to be prepared, but I am choosing me.   I am choosing to honor all that I am.   

What have you discovered about yourself over the last year? 

What are you choosing to embrace and what are you choosing to release as you step into the new year? 

How do you want to show up in the world and what do you desire to call into your experience moving forward? 

As you honor this chapter of your life and turn your gaze to the future, now is the perfect time to reflect on all you have experienced, what you have learned, how you have grown and all you have accomplished while identifying the life you want to create.

December 31, 2023 | Heather Harti, Soul Star Inspired Wellness

Choose To Be The Witness

Have you ever stopped to notice the way you view the world around you? Not just the obvious, in your face emotion inducing reactions but the subtle opinions you hold that speak quietly in your mind, so entrenched in your beliefs that you barley notice them flash through your consciousness. The judgements you not only hold around others but the judgements you hold about yourself.

What defines good or bad, right or wrong? For each person that defined spectrum varies based on cultural and societal programs, religious beliefs, family upbringing, life experiences, unresolved karma and more. But are those definitions ultimately true?

Unconditional love is the acceptance of all for what it is without judgement or expectation. An observation of what is.

What we judge in others is often a judgement we hold about ourself. When we shift into observation, we have the opportunity to see the divine plan in motion, zooming out to see each being, including ourself, as the divine expression of Gods light within the human experience. In the heart of source there is no good, bad, right or wrong, it simply is. We are in co-creation with the Divine having this experience in the third dimensional realm. Step back in wonder to see the magic unfolding around you in each moment. Let go and allow. Become the observer and surrender to love.

September 6, 2023 | Heather Harti, Soul Star Inspired Wellness

What Are You Choosing To Create?

I was having a discussion with a friend recently about how powerful our thoughts and beliefs are in creating our reality. The Law of Resonance reminds us that like attracts like and when we become a vibrational match to a person, place, experience, idea or belief, we become a magnet pulling it in.

How often do you stop to observe your thoughts and beliefs? Sometimes these are so deeply seated in our being we don’t even realize the ways in which they surface. Look at what is happening outside of you and you will begin to see the energy you hold within you.

Manifestation attempts not working?

What limiting beliefs do you hold around what you are calling in?

Noticing a pattern of partners and friends that seem to trigger the same feelings within you?

What limiting beliefs are they supporting that you hold about yourself?

Are you cycling the same experiences from the past through your thoughts and stories?

Where have you created a limiting belief around your experience and how can you let go to let healing in?

How do you speak to yourself about yourself? How do you speak about others?

Where are you holding judgement and what limiting belief is restricting you from opening to love?

Become the observer of your thoughts and beliefs. Notice what is being attracted into your life and discover the unresolved energy you hold that is creating your current reality. Be gentle. Be open to seeing things differently. Allow your heart to soften and heal. You have the power to create anything you want in your life. Begin Within.

August 30, 2023 | Heather Harti, Soul Star Inspired Wellness

If It’s Meant To Be, It Will Find A Way

Trusting the Divine plan can be one of the hardest parts of our journey. How many times have you asked or even begged for your hearts desires only to be faced with silence? I can honestly say I have repeatedly crashed into this brick wall time and time again, turning to the Divine in anger and frustration then ultimately succumbing to the limiting beliefs I hold that I’m not good enough, I’m not worthy, I’m a failure, what’s the point of trying.

What if I am being asked to pause. What if I am not seeing what’s happening beneath the surface. What if all of my perceived failures are actually building the foundation of what IS coming. What if I am being redirected to something better. What if this is an opportunity to heal. What if I let go of expectation. What if I stop trying to control the outcome and simply choose to surrender to the Divine plan.

What is meant for you will always find a way. There is nothing you can do to stop what is divinely planned for you and there is nothing you can do to make something happen that is not. Trust that you are here for a reason. Trust that you are held and supported each step of the way. Trust that all is unfolding for your highest potential. Let go of control. Let go of the disappointment. Let go of your own timeline and trust the timing of the Divine. You are made from love and love will guide each step of the way. Follow your heart being present in each moment and when you choose to live authentically in alignment with all that you are and all that is, you will see the magic of the Divine unfold abundantly for you in ways you never could have imagined.

August 26, 2023 | Heather Harti, Soul Star Inspired Wellness